Anne didn't have a great week.
I mean, she's getting older, and her life is super busy,
and she hurt her hip on Thursday and Friday she was the queen of grouch.
Sometimes life is not fair. When you are tired, lonely. lost and frustrated, the punches continue to get thrown.
There has been a lot of changes in the house, with Jay's needs changing, the staff is tired, worn down and the folks aren't all getting the same one on one attention that they used too.
Anne's life is in transition, and she didn't need a sore hip to add to the chaos.
I can connect with her. Because my life is in transition right now too. Im lonely, I miss having Michael, Miguel, Kassym, Shale, Chris, Janice, Elizabeth and Trevor at a stones throw. I miss being able to walk upstairs and as for a hug when my heart is aching. I miss being able to drive home when life gets to be too much. I miss having someone to laugh with all the time.
I'm trying to be so strong here, but sometimes I feel like it was foolish to come back.
The amount I'd give to be able to play a game of euchre, or hold Michael's hand right now is ridiculous.
But, last night when I was reflecting on the week with Anne, she said she was happy.
she didn't know why, but she was.
I almost cried! I see a million reasons for her to be upset, and angry. I wouldn't blame her for a single second!
But, it was all forgotten, and she only recalled the highlights of her week.
I want to live like that. I try, but I can always improve.
I wish I could capture her beauty and innocence in that moment for you to really see an understand.
Life and L'Arche are beautiful.
- ella faye